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01

Jun

Merced

Im back in Merced, i still dont like the place but I’ve had so much memories here. I made me realize how lucky i am. I’ve come so far….. But sometimes I’m blinded by fear. Fear is the enemy.

11

Mar

thirstyguinanfetish:

bodyfluids:

babylonian:

this photoset sums up Magic tournaments so perfectly

This is too much

zomg

22

Apr

dontforgettolovey0urself:

THIS. <3

dontforgettolovey0urself:

THIS. <3

(Source: aubreep)

14

Jan

tired

I’m more tired now than same time last year. I don’t think I can go on and do this for a long time. Its just not that easy. I’m all burned up. 

08

Oct

Taken with instagram

Taken with instagram

05

Sep

time passess by

My one week off is almost over. Its been a long time since I have been just alone and not worry about anything in the world. I love just being alone.

Somehow people kept on creeping up just when you don’t expect them to be. I find myself turning down a lot of invites to go out. I just don’t want to be disturbed. I have spent so much of my energy complaining that I am alone. Now, i realize that all  I have to do is call them. I’m that cruel to myself sometimes. We create our own misery and the worse thing is believe it to be true. I don’t want to go to that place again. 

I came to see some of solitude poems and videos that literally blew my away. Me seeing those makes me feel that I’m not that alone and a lot of people actually feels my pain and its OK. 

01

Sep

For a moment

Cleaned up the house, organized my shit, listening to Billie Porter, 2 slices of pizza and glass of wine. I’ve never felt this good for months. Happiness starts now. 

29

Aug

Haaay Buhayy

Its been almost a year since I’ve started working in this hospital. My number one stress is that i’m the closet still. It all stems from that. I would love to start all over again and just come out. I think i’m ripe for the picking now. I’m more ready for it. I want to move somewhere and come out!!! That’s the beauty of living here in the US, you can start all over. I wanna start all over. Siguro ang benta ko kung lumantad nako? Joke. I wanna do it ASAP. Everytime I want to do it, it just doesn’t feel right. Not here, not in this place. I will someday, somewhere. I know i’m gonna make it through. Its just matter of timing. In God’s time. he’ll show me the way. 

21

Aug

Patience is a virtue
Sun Behind The Cloud  John S Lens, Ina&#8217;s 1969 Film, Dreampop Flash, Taken with Hipstamatic

Sun Behind The Cloud

John S Lens, Ina’s 1969 Film, Dreampop Flash, Taken with Hipstamatic